2 years ago I opened the doors to my difficult, violent and just plan crazy life.
You all sat back and allowed me to pour you drink after drink from my bar of mayhem getting you more and more addicted with every shot.
Some of the shots were smooth and sweet….. some were strong and burned going down……. but most of them had you on the floor like “What The Fuck?”.
While I enjoyed getting you all intoxicated it’s now time for the Last Call there will be no more shots poured at Shamelessly Guiltless.
You’ve read about a young tormented young girl who made it her life’s mission to seek revenge on her tormentors. You’ve watched me cry. You’ve watched me conquer. You’ve watched me turn the tables. But most of all you’ve watched me grow into the fierce fearless woman I am today.
I’m no role model and never intended to be but if my struggle helps one person I’m good with that. We’ve all heard the saying “Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and even though it might seem little corny …….it’s hard truth.
I’m living breathing proof that you’re only a victim if you allow people to make you one. Whatever tragedy happened in your life it’s up to you to turn it around…… never depend on anyone to get you out of your dark times.
I’m not saying don’t get help if you need it but you need to be the main source of your happiness and maybe get yourself a group of friends like mine (jk)
This ending is bitter sweet but something that needs to be done. I loved and adore the people I’ve met through this journey. But if I truly want to move on with my life and let go of my past that means letting go of every reminder of that life. My childhood journals have been locked away by my mother in law. Any family photos of me and my old family have been burned or buried. Any children I have will know nothing of my dad, mom, Gaban, Gabby or Gavin.
I want to thank everyone who has read, left a comment, liked, shared or enjoyed my post.
Mel…… You’re advice and kind words always came at amazing much needed times.
OHKLS…. You were always encouraging and made me laugh even when I didn’t want to
Rahburt….. My day one who has inspired me for years to be a better person. You told me what I needed to hear even when I hated you for it.
Jason…. Never in my life have I thought I would be happy until you came running into my life. You are my rock, my protector, lover, best friend, everything I could need and want in a person. You aren’t intimated by my strong personality and appreciate the fact I can handle my own. You’re a powerful man who wants his woman by his side not behind him. Love the fuck out of you.
The Rejects….. No one could ever have asked for a better group of Ride or Die friends. And I’m sure we’ll wreck mayhem in hell together just as we did on earth.
Linda….. I never knew what it was like to know the love of a parent until you showed and continue to show. You have a heart of gold and a soul as pure and genuine as they come I love you so much.
The Vixens and Campus Candy……. You helped take my vision from a cocktail napkin to something bigger than anyone can handle
Bloggers…… You all inspire different things in me and I enjoyed reading all of your fun post
Alex…..Love you and I will have your back till the day I die
HERE’S TO THE ONES WE LOVED THAT DIDN’T LOVE US
THE ONES WE LOVED THAT LEFT US.
NO FUCK THEM
HERE’S TO THE MISFITS
THE TROUBLE MAKERS
THE BAD GIRLS
THE POWER COUPLES
HERE’S TO BEING WOMEN…..